Sinking

Do you think it was okay?...

To leave me here in the dark
I have to face today with no tomorrow
You placed your hands tightly around my mouth
You held my hands down so I had no control
You took that toll on me
You made my breath weak
I was dizzy
I was hurt
I don’t even know you
I have done all this before
I have hurt myself over this
I made a disaster out of this
When I can make something beautiful out of nothing
A million things flashed through my head but just one made my heart
SINK
You play it off now like everything's okay
But it's not
Nothing is okay
I love someone
With all my heart
I know him more than I know myself
I would die for him
And last night that is exactly what I did
Now I am left with no sanity
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
You took my life
My existence I loved
Now worries consume my mind
Where peace once laid
Now shadows are cast on my soul
Where sunshine once shone
Now angels took my spirit into hell
Where it was once uplifted by my love
Now sorrow fills my heart
Where happiness once lived
You will let me be this way
Without a care in the world
You broke me and shattered me to pieces
Now to insecure and shallow
To hurt and feeble
To trust myself and pick the pieces back up
I need familiar loving hands to put me back together!